If i told you it was killing me, would you stop?

2007-01-04T02:31:00.000-08:00

sheesh dusty dusty here.
wells it'll be really really long before i'll blog again
when i get a new comp that's is. lol!
then i'll change my template and all. maybe have a new e-mail
that'll take lloonnggg...gosh
so it'll really be dusty here. wells
christmas was really fun and special this year.
new year seems like any other day.
sighs..school is just crap okay. and there'll
be our camp corri. arghhh..
hmm.nonsense!
okay i'll blog soon when my long-awaited comp arrives.

2006-12-17T19:20:00.000-08:00

oh awesome christmas is coming and
so is my results. sheesh. i'm not trying
to be a pessimist but i just can't help
it. seriously i was kinda hoping high for
my maths but i was really ill with some dumb
gastric flu thingy and i have no idea what
answers i wrote or rather scribbled.
it hurts to even think let alone looking
at the questions. gosh i'm doomed i say.
i don't know whether to even feel alright
as now if i didn't make it i could
pursue my dream or feel really really afraid
and can't sleep later or or? or!!
focus dude.. okay alrighty arghhhh.
anyways on the bright side i can't wait for christmas!
wells i can't wait to have lunch with my clique tmr
it might be our last?

it's been raining for like the whole day.
it's so lovely i love the rain. grinss...
and i love the korean superstar rain.
did you see how he dances?? though i don't
understand what he's singing but erms he's
super hottie hot hottie! droolss..
okay it's sunday and yes i did went to
church. if you know what i mean. winks.

2006-12-15T19:56:00.000-08:00

sheesh. this few weeks been busy busy busy.
christmas is well around the corner so there's lots
of shopping shopping!!
wells i've brought most of everything already. i guess..
it's kinda fun actually.
i'm at daph's house now- sleepover!!
we'll be heading to my church soon for some celebration.
i didn't dare to go alone. weeee....
okay i'm still real tired but for daphne she's
a walking zombie. wahahahaha....
i better go now. blahsss..
do i sound reluctant? you think?

2006-12-07T02:18:00.001-08:00

there's no such thing as
faith,trust and pixie dust.

today had really dumb training. blahs.
i'm so tired and tmr we got match! vs unknown?
ah wells. i hope i can perform up to coach expectations.
right. he rocks mann..he's so lame amandy says he reminds
her of her grandfather. she's so weird=X
so i'm really afraid if i let him down plus my back is giving
me big nonsense problem. i'll try
bloody hahaha.
after training had a freezing shower! and weird amandy
could even suggest we bath in the rain?! she's the weirdo.
i'm saying it's true she's a weirdo and i'm telling her.
oh-she kinda behind me.
she in her weirdoland now trying to fly. okay! she's
attacking me!!! pause.

play-okay gosh! scary!! ohohohohoh a shout out coming:
I LOVE THE RAIN!!
sheesh.. the rain. it's so pretty i could stare at it till it stops.
ok i'm being sadist, again.
can't help it though. just stare and welcome to my world.
wait!!i'm drifting awy from what i wanna say.
errs. i forgot.
ah wells. i'm being silly now.
rain more!!pls?
i'm fine i'm fine.

anyways i'm too tired to listen to all the nonsense
with friends and all.
don't you guys miss those times?
don't you?

i kinda miss..

2006-12-04T03:29:00.000-08:00

sheesh!
tmr got this damn training. Boring!
i'm at daphs' housie. wells amandy here
is going insane, hehs as usual. seriously she needs help!
arghhh...

anyways, i need an outfit for CHRISTMAS!!
okay i'm full of nonsense unlike amandy whose
plain retardeee..i can't type in peace
she's haunting me!!!

2006-11-21T02:15:00.000-08:00

Love me or hate me is still an obsession
love me or hate me that is the question
if you love me then fuck you
if you hate me then fuck you.

hey loves,
recently been just physically and mentally draining.
physically due to none other than training. sheesh!
mentally due to this confusing friends thingy.
gosh! i can't believe it.
why is everything our fault??why.
you can write in your blogs all this??what outcast?incast?
i'm telling you all that you have no idea how much you broke my heart.
i always asked hey what you doing after school and all.
i made an effort talking to you and all-and you said you feel left out.
do you know how i felt?
heartbroken. cause you treated me like an invisble person.
i was invisible to you.

i always ask bout your life. but you too, soon got along together
and incast yourself? i was speechless.

both of you knew i've gone through this before. you knew!
why are you doing this to me? why.
i won't go through it again. pls!
you knew i've gone through it before but you didn't know how i felt eh?
that feelin is doubled now because there are two of you.
i'm tired.
i'm really exhasted dealing it again you think i would bother now?
but i did.
i tried but you two pushed me away.
do you know how i felt? i tried to understand
but did you, tried and understand?

i give up.
blame me. it was all my fault pls stop blaming the rest.
blame me.

2006-11-12T03:02:00.000-08:00

gosh! i'm back after many years.
wells i wanted to renew mine but... yups
i'm too lazy.
so i was at daphs house and saw this really cute blogskin
and thought why not just renew now?
so here i am.
it's still incomplete though. how silly.
not to worry-when i got the time from
my made-up busy life then i'll sort it out or something.
plus i don't have a com at this dreaded place some called home.